Try to live life with death..

   If everyone thought like me, the world would be a better place. I don't get overly sad when someone passes, it is our only guarantee in life. I have learned to be more accepting of it. I know I'm going to lose my shit when my mom leaves this world. But i will try my hardest to accept this part of life, and try and live with death. 

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   One thing i can not stand is how no one pays attention to someone until they die. Then all of a sudden, they were best friends, they miss them sooo much. Sometimes, i never even knew that they knew each other.  
I think you should appreciate everyone, ALL THE TIME. 
I make it a point to never take for granted anyone. If i care for them, they know it. Everyone knows it. 

What is Ipsy Bag?

Ipsy is a member inclusive subscription to where each month you receive a bag that includes 5-6 usually full size samples. Only $10 a month!

I have been a member for well over a year now, i was even a member when it was known as a "glam bag" i am overly happy with what i have gotten up until this point. I use to subscribe to birtchbox. Which is the same thing, paying 10 dollars a month and receiving samples. I canceled my subscription because they were little samples, not worth the ten dollars. Then i learned about MyGlam bag and decided to try it. Comparatively, it blew my mind. You get multiple full sized products, and a small clutch sized bag each month! I wasn't overly impressed with this month but previous months make up for it.. So here it goes…

You will receive this awesome hot pink delivery bag that has your tipsy bag in it!

You will open this and find a smaller bag inside that contains your items, you will also find a card stock that has information about your items on it. and or ways you can get discounts on the items in your bag.  The bag usually has a theme. 

This month was "The look of love". 

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 Plump Pout Mini by POP Beauty

Color: Peony Petal

First impression: Holy summoly. A little dark for me. 

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Nail Polish by Zoya

Color: DOT

First Impression: YUCK. They have been sending so many nail polishes, its getting old. i have liked some.. but i hate the neon and pastel colors. 

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Be Matte Blush by City Color

Color: Fresh Melon

First Impression: Omg. Who in their right mind would wear this. 

It is seriously like a red, can't really tell from this pic but holy hell.  

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Eyetini Cordial Cream Shadow + Base In One by Tini Beauty

Color: Ambrosia

First Impression: I thought this was a lip color. So… i put it on my lips. Didn't turn out so well…. I looked like a dead crack whore. But i did a swatch, which you will see and discovered it was an eyeshadow. I love it! Dries quick and has a purple metallic finish. I have it on right now!

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Moist & Firm BB by IPKN NY

Color: 02 Light

First Impression: Hm. 

Its to dark for my skin tone:/ 

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SWATCHES!! 

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Hope you injured this and thought it was helpful! 

If your thinking of signing up, i suggest you do!

The best foods of my life

Nom nom nom….. 

I am always eating. People always ask me what to get where ever they go, because i know the goods. I am a little piglet. If I'm at a gathering and you can't find me, check by the food.. Ill be there.

Here are a few of my suggestions (Most are sweets teehee)

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Wendy's: Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger Mayo only

Taco Bell: Churro, Chulupa supreme no lettuce or tomato

Jack in the Box: Tacos.

KFC: Mashed Potato Bowl

SmashBurger: Root beer float

Steak'n'Shake: Frisco Melt

Waffle House: Hash-browns double covered. Peanut Butter Waffle extra peanut butter.

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Applebees: Club House grill

Bob Evans: Sunshine Skillet (over easy)

BJs restaurant and brewery: Red Velvet Pazookie*

Frishes Big Boy: Vanilla Milkshake (best milkshakes ever)

Cold Stone Creamery: Cake batter Ice Cream

O'Charley's: Honey Drizzled Southern Fried Chicken, Ooey Gooey Carmel Pie*

Olive Garden: White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake*** 

Chili's: Bacon Ranch Quesadilla 

 Perkins: Chocolate French Silk pie**

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Cheesecake Factory: Deep fried mac and cheese.

Joes Crab Shack: Crab Cakes.

PF Changs: Crab Fried rice

The Pub: Shepherds Pie

* Um Yum.

** Heaven in my mouth

*** O in my mouth

I has a mouse..

This is Lola, she is a fancy mouse. 

She is the cutest thing i think i have ever seen. She is a lot smaller than it seems in pictures. 

She is a crazy mouse. Like jeez almost as bad a Guinea pigs.. you know how they are skittish.. ALWAYS. My mouse is like that. She's so funny. 

She's a jumper let me tell you that. When trying to transfer her into her cage when i bought her… lets just say she was on the curtains…

It has been almost a week, she still won't let me touch her. I work with her every day, putting my hand in there and "letting her come to me" She will sacredly waltz up and sniff 2 times squint her eyes and run away. Goodness mouse, I JUST WANT TO LOVE YOU.. 

She stress runs.. her wheel is what she does when ever anything happens. She thinks she's safe in there. Its so cute. Zach narrates her thoughts "Gasp, run run run run, its coming closer, i'll just run fassterrr! Run run run"

Theres a wire top to her glass cage, she jumps up and climbs all around, upside down. When this happens Zach sings the spiderman song but changes it to spider mouse.. 

I love them both...

Anxiety.. Depression..

One of the worst things ever, is when your doctor doesn't listen to you, doesn't understand, or just assumes. 

I have very high anxiety. 

It is so hard for me to do everyday normal things. 

I get nervous.

I start to panic.

My worst issue, is people being to close to me. If i am in a store and a few people are walking around me, i run out of the way. I wait for it to clear. It is a constant battle. I cannot stand the thought of being in someones way, i worry about it to much. I envy my boyfriend. He doesn't notice, he doesn't care! He supports me, and understands me more and more each day, i love him to death for that. But i just wish he knew how hard it is for me. 

I get nervous seeing my mom, if i haven't for a few weeks. That is the silliest thing ever. 

I get nervous when i have to make a phone call. I have to be alone, and still it takes me at least 5 minutes to get the courage to hit the little green button….

I was at a origami jewelry bar party, there were quite a few ladies there. A game was introduced… I couldn't do it. It involved getting in front of everyone and preforming a measly task. Everyone did it but me. 

Medications are the freakin best i tell you what. 

They have helped me so much. 

A little laugh

My boyfriend just asked if these two were lesbians…… HAHA

I want to be a Pinup Girl!

I have the face, i have the body, i have that look. 

I love getting all dolled up, and feeling good about myself. 

Interview?!

So apparently, if you don't "ask questions" during an interview, you don't get the job. 

"So do you have any questions for me?"

No….. you explained basically every little detail of this job so i have to dig around my brain for a measly question. 

My thought process before the interview: Life goes on.. this is not going to matter in 4 years. unless i get the job, then i guess it kinda mattered. because ill still be working there probably. BUT the point is life goes on, don't be so god damn nervous. 

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Best Tinted Moisturizer (BB cream)

Garnier Oil Free Shine Control BB Cream

This is my holy grail. I am in love with this product and could go on and on about it. i have an oily t-zone, and this keeps me matte throughout the day! While making my skin look flawless. 

I recommended this to my mom, and she did not like it. She said it caked on her skin. She has plenty of wrinkles and I'm thinking this is why. i do notice that it CAN do this to me, but its just a matter of how you apply it. Buff it in! 

A little about me...

Lauren

The Basics: I just finished schooling with a Esthetics program.. I have a graphic arts background. I am a photographer. I am currently 21. I live with my boyfriend Zach, of whom i have been dating for 2 years in April. Blah Blah.. 

Iv been through a lot in my life, growing up with someone so close to me being a drug addict. I know. I know so many feelings. I know the sadness, i know hard times. I know pain. But i changed my life. I use to be mean and shy and awkward. I tried very hard to make myself a better person, and have succeeded. I am so proud of myself for what i have created for myself. My mind is a place where i actually want to be now. I am happy, friendly, and am not afraid of what people think of me. I love life and want to live it! 

I am silly and spontaneous. Sarcastic and funny. Caring and adorable. And I'm something people take for granted. I actually listen to people when they talk. Most people just talk, so that they can continue talking, that is a trait i find so annoying. I talk to hear what you have to say. I actually care about you as a being (of course if it comes to this, it means you've made it past my standards of not being a douche or inconsiderate) 

Things i love :>

• Cats (all animals but mostly cats)
• Makeup
• FOOD!! 
• The sims
• Sleeping
• The little things in life <3
• Space & Astrology 
• Scrapbooking
• Spyro the dragon
• Laughing
• 80s and 90s music
• Crafts
• My mom :>
• Making people happy

I don't think people realize how fast life goes by. I always stop and take everything in. The small things in life mean the most. And people who are in a rush all day everyday.. I pity them. Take time. Take time for yourself and take time for others. 

Talk to me, i will listen. 

-Lauren

I am a photographer!

It is my passion. I love doing it. I have started this on my own and am so proud of myself for coming this far. And it can only get better from here.
You should check it out, like my page! always support local photographers! (unless they suck)

Sincerely Beautiful Photography

Gay marriage??

"Gay love is wrong."
If i can love my cat, i think i can love another human being that just so happens to be of the same sex.

So fuck you whoever says its wrong. 

   I seriously do not understand how people can be so against the things OTHER people want to do.. Like gay marriage.. who the fuck cares..Why do you want to stop someone from doing what they want to do.. Its their life… And what they want to do probably won't affect anyone else what so ever. It just boggles my mind that people are so self-centered and worried about others. The government wants to control love, but they don't want to bother with education, providing HEALTHY food choices, or even a lot of our money problems.

1. mind your own god damn business.
2. treat people with respect, they (most of the population) deserve it.
3. be open minded!
4. don't be a dick.

                                 Let there be happiness!! 

Do what you want to do. Don't let other decide your life. 

What is your biggest fear?

Even if it is small...

One of the worst days of my life…

     My mom was laying on the bed, cold and shivering, about to be wheeled back into surgery. She had cancer. My drug addict dad waited for the last few minutes until they took her back.. he asked “can you give me 20 dollars.” the look on my mommy’s face….. such sadness in her eyes.. just staring at him.. he gave her no choice. When she needed love, he needed to get high. I have never felt so disappointed in a human being in my life. My father. My stomach was in such a knot, i wanted to throw up. My momma gave me the world. and to see someone hurt her, in so many ways, every day. Someone that is suppose to love us, support and take care of us. But instead, destroyed everything. Mentally and physically. So i guess you could say every day was one of the worst. 

I may be offensive..

   But i come in peace. I am so excited about this blog and hope i reach the puny little minds of many individuals.  I am really honest in my words, but seriously would never mean any harm to anyone ever. So if i say something you might think is a little iffy.. Im joking. Trying to be funny. or just speaking a little of my mind. Which has nothing to do with you, so why does it matter.  

Plans for my blog:

• to make you laugh
• to make you think
• to let my mind soar
• to say some funny shit
• to be Awesome

-Lauren