She is perfect...

I have met a beautiful human being. She is gorgeous. Her personality is breathtaking and she has a wonderful life.
And I just spent the last week training her on the job I was hoping to get.
And if that wasn't a hard enough kick in the teeth, she had to be the cutest thing ever. By the third day i was so apply she had fallen into this job opportunity. She listened to every word i had to say and she truly cared.
I had never felt the want to be someone else in my entire life. it was a strange feeling for me. i was happy with myself, until i learned all about her.
She just got married to the man of her dreams. They just bought an adorable house and are so happy together its sickening. I want a relationship like that. Someone who has a personality like mine, who wants to do things that I  want to do. Not someone who is always preventing me from doing what i want in life.. They are religious and are so thankful for everything. Happy with all the little things. I want that. I want to feel perfect with someone.
She has a gorgeous smile, beautiful skin color, athletic body. and god damn that personality.. It makes me realize what i deserve in life.